perimenopause chronicle quilt

Happy Quilt Top

Pink and white Quilt Top blowing in the breeze

Not too long ago someone asked me how I design a quilt. Like, how do you go from idea to finished quilt? For all that I talk about play and experimentation, my answer was a bit of a cliche. The truth is, I rarely design a quilt. Instead, I try an idea out and see if it works, see if it grabs me. If I like it, then I make a bunch of things My great pleasure comes when I am trying to make all those things look good together. That is also the greatest challenge. When the last seam is stitched 90% of the time I could never have predicted (designed) the quilt I ended up with.

This particular quilt, for instance, actually started with a sample block for a virtual class. The pinks were piled up, rejects from my Perimenpause Chronicle Quilt. So when a request came from a student for a particular make I grabbed what was on the top of the table. The block worked, I set it aside. And honestly? I didn’t think about it again for months. The next time I pulled it out for a class it never got put away. Then, back in May it popped into my line of sight and I decided to make a second block. It was with the third block that I realized I’d gone from an experiment to a quilt top.

8 pink fabric blocks cut with an improv quarter circle

So I just made my way through the pile of hand dyed fabric. First I used all the pink pinks. That didn’t get me very far so I used the more purply ones too. I don’t really like to make small quilts and I was then out of enough of the pink and purple fabrics so I dyed some more. They ended up a lot lighter and I debated trying again but decided to just make it work.

Another thing I had to make work was the background fabrics. Somewhere along the way I grabbed a different white than the one I started with. Because I was mostly working in the evening, under artificial light, I didn’t notice immediately. I had a choice to make - redo the blocks with the different white or keep going. Because I am kind of lazy I kept going. But what I did was embrace the differences and made the remaining blocks a mix of both whites. That way your eye wasn’t going to be drawn straight to the outlier.

Pink and White Pinhweel Quilt Top on fence

The amount of pink fabric I had was going to make a 48” square quilt when all was said and done. Not too shabby, really. By this point though, this quilt - puttering on this quilt - was really helping my mental health so I decided I wasn’t ready to stop making. I spent a fair amount of time contemplating things on the design wall then decided on something akin to a border. In places the pink curves extend out beyond the centre square. Most of the outside is white, however. Rather than make it a solid white and have. bunch of weird piecing to accommodate those extra pink bits I made the border out of the same size 16 patch blocks as the centre. So really, the quilt top is basic patchwork of 576 4” squares.

We won’t talk about the backing debacle, but I am back on track to get this basted shortly. I plan on a mix of machine and hand quilting so I would like it ready for when the snow flies and we are indoors a bit more.

Perimenopause Chronicle Quilt Update

Perimenopause Chronicle Quilt Cheryl Arkison

One month in.

I’ve never paid this much attention to my menstrual cycle. I’m finding it quite eye opening. Part of it is about deciphering whether a mood is as result of outside forces (life/Covid/work/parenting) or influenced by hormones and impacting my responses to those outside forces. Part of it is realizing how much my sleep, or lack thereof, is both impacted by perimenopause and impacts my moods. Frankly, it all has me appreciating just how much we women can get done with all this happening to our bodies.

Cheryl Arkison Mittelschmerz.jpg

The project itself involves 5-10 minutes of sewing at the end of the day. After the kids go to bed and before I sit down with my husband I stitch up the block. Pain? Mood? Any flow? What about all that other random stuff? Pain (associated with my cycle only, not my back pain) is a strike through the center of the vagina representation. The background is the mood. The center is about flow or not flow. Orange bits account for the night time stuff (sweats and dreams) or bowel, breast, or other things. In the first month I marked my Covid vaccine. In this second month I marked my restart of iron supplements for anemia. Each night I post the block and quick summary on my Instagram stories. #perimenipausechroniclequilt

I am wildly curious to see consistencies and changes over the year. Sure, I could use an app like my teenage daughter, but this visual representation is very appealing to me. Here is the legend I am using.

Only one person has criticized me for the project, for sharing too much information. While I get that - this is a lot for me to be sharing, I’m sure my teenage nephews that follow me love it - I really do believe that it is important to be open in this conversation. After I first announced the project I received so many positive emails from women of all ages. I really appreciate every comment, it adds to the conversation. If the emails and comments are any indication, we need to have more and more conversations.

Perimenopause Chronicle Quilt Cheryl Arkison

The Perimenopause Chronicle Quilt Begins

Perimenopause Chronical Quilt

I come from a family with scary uterine history. My grandmother died of cervical cancer in her 30s. My mom had a hysterectomy shortly after giving birth to me. That history also means I have zero recollection of any conversations about menopause within my family. Really though, the world just doesn’t talk it; it isn’t just a thing with my family. More specifically, the world does not talk about perimenopause.

A few weeks ago I had a long conversation with one of my girlfriends about this. Is it squeamishness? Denial? the perpetual sweeping under the rug of anything to do with women’s health? Now that we are in the thick of perimenopause it reminds of when I was pregnant and I kept asking: why didn’t anyone tell me about this? In both cases it might be that people did tell me but I wasn’t looking for/listening to the information before I needed it. Or, it is the reasons listed above? Regardless, I am interested in it a lot now, for obvious reasons - being a 45 year old woman, namely.

So, on our last Virtual Trunk Show (Instagram Live, the second Thursday of each month) we had the theme of Change of Seasons and it gave me a wonderful idea: make a quilt to mark the perimenopause experience! I got the idea from the concept of temperature quilts/blankets. You pick a colour to correspond with the temperature of the day and make a block or knit/crochet a row to mark it. Only I would be marking my flow, moods, pain, and other stuff of my perimenopausal menstrual cycle.

Aided by a few conversations with friends and online about what exactly I should track and in consultation with the Monster and The Evil Genius I planned out the quilt. Fabric selection was a bit tough. I went back and forth between solids and prints until I concluded that neither felt right. A quiet Sunday at home led me to experiment with hand-dyed fabric (with Procion MX dyes). It took a few tries but I am happy with the palette for this quilt.

Cheryl Arkison Perimenopause Chronicle Quilt

Each block will include a representation of my flow, or not flow, as well as my mood. I am also including a marker for pain and for what my teen referred to as Random Ass Shit like night sweats, bowel issues, breast tenderness, and bloating.

Here is the legend I am working with:

LEFT PILE
Orange = Random Ass Shit
Yellow = Pain (cramps and mittleschmerz mostly)
Pink/Peach = no flow
Pink Red = light flow
Red = medium flow
Purple Red = heavy flow

RIGHT PILE is for moods
Green = Happy
Turquoise = Content
Blue = Sad/Listless
Purple = Grumpy/Irritable/Annoyed
Black = Angry

My plan is to track things for 12 cycles. That adds up to more or less a year. Nothing is perfectly regular anymore so that is only a guess.

I know that this makes some feel uncomfortable. Oh well. We need more conversations on this topic and I am happy to open the door and make space for that. Yes, the quilt is a selfish reflection but it will serve as a larger conversation starter.

Expect the periodic post here and follow along on instagram with #perimenopausechroniclequilt.